Update: US Supreme Court Protects Westboro Baptist Church

This is a update to my last note regarding the threat by a hacker group to strike out at the Westboro Baptist Church if the organization does not end its hateful protests. At the time of the threat, the WBC was already in court defending its rights after being sued by the family of a deceased soldier for protesting outside his funeral. The case worked its way up to the US Supreme Court, which determined that the WBC had protested lawfully, obeying all regulations, and was entitled to the protection of the First Amendment since the government cannot control the content of protests.

Justice Samuel Alito was the lone dissenter in the 8-1 decision. He states in his dissent that there ought to be not protection for the sort of bitter and irreverent hatred that the WBC preaches.

You can read more here: http://www.usatoday.com/news/washington/judicial/2011-03-02-westboro-first-amendment_N.htm

As I said in my previous note, I don't like the WBC any more than anyone else, but free speech is important to us all, and even it means continuing to put up with the WBC, I for one am glad that free speech is still safe for all, not matter the message. For that reason, I'm penciling into my calendar the WBC's next protect in my area, because I plan to use that right to respond to them in the correct manner, by joining the many that counterprotest with messages of tolerance. I encourage you all to do the same. You can find the WBC's picket calendar on their website: www.godhatesfags.com

The Freedom to Be a Pain

This is hypocritical and wrong. I don't like the Westboro Baptist Church any more than anyone else, but it isn't right for the hacker group known as Anonymous to retaliate in this way, by making these threats, while advocating some weird version of free speech that excludes those that society sees (let's be honest) as a pain in the ass. Pains in the ass deserve free speech too. For today, I support the Westboro Baptist Church. We can be better than this, people. If we try to take away the freedoms of others by fear and intimidation, we don't deserve those freedoms ourselves.

CBS News Reports :

"A group of hacktivists acting under the banner, "Anonymous," has warned a church with a controversial history that unspoken retribution will follow it continues its practice of inflammatory protests.

"In an open letter to the Westboro Baptist Church, Anonymous has put the anti-gay, fundamentalist church on notice that "the damage incurred will be irreversible," and that "neither your institution nor your congregation will ever be able to fully recover." "

For the full article, including a full copy of the open letter by Anonymous, visit:

http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-501465_162-20033942-501465.html

A Lesbian in the Life of a Small-Town Genius

Victoria S.
Age 13
Central Missouri

I was never “supposed to be” gay, or even questioning, for that matter. There is a very profound rule in my town and the surrounding area. You are basically supposed to go to high school, state or community college, get a job, get married, work, get old, and die.

At the age of only 9, 10 or 11, I knew I was different. Things were going really well for me at the time. I had just been accepted into the gifted program at school, and had a “boyfriend”- you know how elementary school “relationships” go. One thing that hit me, after about a week, I would have to force myself to have feelings for a guy.

No one I knew was having that problem, or at least didn’t say anything about it. Through the rest of 4th and 5th grade, I just thought I hadn’t met someone I truly liked yet- but as it turns out, I was looking in all the wrong places.

What seriously hit home for me was at a sleepover. I was sleeping at my best friend’s house, like I did almost every weekend. She, her younger sister, and I were sitting on the bed, and I, well, felt something that I would later realize was attraction. We would jump around, and when my friend would jokingly get close to me, I was attracted. However, I was very ashamed, although I would just smile to myself every time she got closer to me.

Later that night, in an odd game of spin the bottle, I had my first kiss- with a girl. And I liked it. I liked it more than I would admit to myself. It was then that I knew something was VERY different about me.

I discovered my brother’s secret [that he is gay] when I was very young, and had an interest in gay rights, and gay people in general. I never viewed homosexuality as wrong in anyway. It was simply love- and love is good, or so I tried to believe as I came out as bisexual.

When I initially came out, so many girls identified as “bi” that I wasn’t taken seriously at first, even by some of my friends. Even then, I soon became one of the poster children for the LGBT community in our town. There are four to five openly gay kids and our town, and I’ve already explained the sort of fad that the word “bi” represented at the time, and I know each and every one of them, being really good friends with most of my town’s LGBT citizens.

Even then, though, a growing monster was threatening to tear me apart. I was cutting myself because I was so hurt, and as I even started my first relationship with a girl earlier this year, I felt I was wrong. I had internalized homophobia.
This led me to nearly attempt suicide. I was this close to making an attempt on my life. I absolutely HAD to talk to someone about this.

When I was beginning to think I could turn to one of my old friends, who at one time I almost dated, I sent her a message over Facebook. At the time, I was living with my brother and sister-in-law, and my sister-in-law went through the messages I had sent to my old friend and my friend Sam, who was rumored to be my girlfriend.

They set me down, explaining that it wasn’t right and I shouldn’t be worried about that “stuff” yet. My brother sort of defended me, but they expressed their feelings of my (at that time) bisexuality very clearly. If I wanted to live like that, they said, then I could go back to my parents’ house.

That debate split my family beyond repair, and my first real run-in with homophobia still comes back to me every single moment that I have free-time to think.

Soon after I lost contact with my brother and sister-in-law, I developed an unrequited crush on one of my close friends, and we still talk to this day. I haven’t lost any real friends because of their attitudes toward homosexuality, but for a while, I had lost two siblings. Although I have them back, I know nothing can be the same between them and my parents.

I just try to live day-by-day, dealing with my internalized homophobia as it presents itself, and even though I’m not perfect, I know that God makes no mistakes. I believe that I was made to be different, and will live as God intended me to.

“Why would God make us so different if he wanted us all to be the same?”- SAVED! The movie

“Burst down those closet doors once and for all, and stand up and start to fight!"- Harvey Milk

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A Gay in the Life of a Teenager

This post comes from a young man who seems to have gained an interesting perspective from his experiences, one that I'm sure many of us share or should consider. Read on, and feel free to leave comments if you have any response!

Well, I'm just one gay teenager out of trillions around the world. Well, my story is, well, a bit sad but also happy because now my sister accepts me, but not my parents, but my friends support me in my life. I have a boyfriend and he always gives me emotional support also. My secret came out when I was 9 yrs old. My mom had found a gay magazine under my bed, but since that day my life has changed in good and bad ways. I’m just proud to be gay, and I want everyone to know it because I'm not afraid of what anyone thinks of me.

Well, this is just some of my life. Now I'm living life to the maximum and enjoying it. Don't be afraid to show your true self, and don't care what other people say because they will try to make you feel down, but ignore it just like I do. I just say whatever, I will always be gay, and nobody can change me, ok, because they are no better than anyone else, and remember god loves us, that's why he created us, to make the world think different about love.

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A Gay in the Life of a Gay, Frustrated with the Gays

I really enjoyed reading this next post from Greg in Boston. Greg has some very insightful opinions to offer on the LGBTQ community.

Name: Greg
Age: 21
Location: Boston, MA
BU '11

My name is Greg. I’m an undergrad at BU. I love chemistry and hope to do research in the field for the rest of my life. I’m applying for grad schools with the hope of getting into an organic chemistry program. I’ve learned a lot in college, but what inspires me to write today is not about what lessons I’ve learned, but is instead about what lesson so many of us have forgotten: Be yourself.

I understand that it can be quite difficult to deal with life as a homosexual in a mainly heterosexual society. When in the closet, we feel constantly tormented by the fact that we can never completely live up to the expectations society has for us. We are all molded with the idea, even at times indirectly, that homosexuality is something lowly, something we do not want to be. Even when we feel we can accept others who may identify with homosexuality, it takes a rather massive leap (or, at least it did for me) to accept ourselves in the same way.

Once we do come out of the closet, it is a rebellion against the constraints forced upon us our entire lives. This liberation allows us to finally be whoever we want to be. We can accept ourselves for who we really are.

However, after this epiphany, many tend to deny the beautiful opportunity that this act presents to us. Instead of accepting our freedom, all too often people will place themselves into another set of predetermined characteristics, into another closet, hiding behind the stereotypes with which a heteronormative society has branded us. We walk from one dark room into another, never letting the world see who we really are. Sure, some of us may naturally have some of the qualities that fit into the hetero view of homosexuality; however, it seems we either conform to the rest of the set or make hyperbole of the ones we have.

Of course, then another issue at the other end of the spectrum arises. I have more than once heard from many, including numerous other people in the glbtq category, that we must hold back, calm down, fall closer to the norm, in order to be accepted by society and gain equal standing, equal rights. I find this to be disappointing, not only because the idea itself is horrifying, but because it so often comes from homosexuals themselves. Here we have the same problem as before, but just in a different light: instead of trying to fit in with a heterosexual view of homosexuality, we try to fit back into heterosexual society altogether.

In both cases, we conform to the major views of society; each of us becomes someone we’re not. We’re treating ourselves like we’re simply pets of our country. It’s like we think that if we’re “well behaved” enough, we’ll get rights just like the rest of the people.

If, to get rights, I can’t be myself, then I’m not actually getting rights at all.

So, maybe we'll all come closer to acceptance, and to peace, if we really come out of hiding, express the way we feel, and show the world that we're actually just like everyone else: we're human.

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My Being Gay in Life

This week we have another amazing story. I'm really excited about this one because it shows just how much one active person can cram into a lifetime. This contributor also included some photos. Don't feel pressured to do the same in your posts, but if you want to, they are definitely a welcome addition!

I was born, 1952, to an average military family, Dad was Commander for Travis AFB. He died before I was born. Raised with just Mom and two older brothers. I knew I was different from them, but HOW different, not until much later in life. But, I was different, not the typical kid. While my brothers liked Basketball, I like Bicycles. When they liked Football, I liked Frisbee. When they liked Baseball, I liked skateboards. I loved the ocean, my family preferred skiing and mountains. At six, I also knew I liked boys, they liked girls. But I never manifested any of this openly. I grew up, was a good student, focused on college and a real professional job. I wanted to be an Oceanographer and Jacques Cousteau was my childhood hero. I graduated high school an average unobtrusive kid. Never got really bullied. Being the "non-athlete" I did get the usual as I was more the nerdish kid. But I KNEW I would be better than them for my brains so I ignored it. I went to University, U.C. Berkeley and got my degrees in Geology, Paleontology and Biology. I was so focused on school, I actually didn't pay attention to my primal drives. During this time, I did design, build and sail a 14 foot catamaran. I graduated in 1975, on Dean's List, moved to Sacramento and started working on a teaching credential. I dropped that as the political climate and the environment for teachers in general was not as it was when I was a kid. But this was when I released my inner Gay. I went out, danced and then in December 1976, met my first love, my partner today of 33 years. We moved in together and in 1978, Mother's Day, we invited my mother and her boyfriend during all my childhood, to dinner at our house. This coming out was too much for them and I was soon "banished " from the family. Soon my next older brother would lose interest in Fraternal bonds. With that, my connections to family were gone. And that decision on my mother and his boyfriend's parts forever severed any interaction they would have with my future life's accomplishments. I felt it would be their loss, not mine. They said I would never amount to anything because I was gay. I confidently knew otherwise.

In 1980, I got my first real professional job as an engineer, soon working on developing Geothermal and natural gas resources for a state agency. I established a new royalty collection formula for the state which would net millions of dollars in natural gas well leases. I also came out to several good close coworkers with no repercussions on my working environment. I had a couple closet homophobes, but my work supporters put them in their place. They told me about this later. We all laughed.

During those first six months, I worked in Los Angeles and started hearing about "Gay Related Infectious Diseases or "GRID" for short. That soon morphed into AIDS. When I transferred to Sacramento, where my partner was living in our house, we attended the FIRST open medical conference on GRID/AIDS in Sacramento and immediately saw the gravity of this new illness. We both quickly got involved in the first Sacramento AIDS Foundation, my partner beginning the first group of patient counselors in Spring 1982. I was to go the second wave, but worked in a fund raising capacity. We worked with Shanti Project out of San Francisco, including Cleve Jones and others. Simultaneously with this activity, I began organizing the FIRST EVER AIDS bicycle fundraiser in the nation. This was in winter of 1982 and funding was not available for AIDS issues. I thought this ride would serve two purposes; raise money for AIDS services in Sacramento, and, the route being from Sacramento to San Francisco, make a statement of "bond" between our two cities. I got good support from fellow volunteers, but luke warm support from the Foundation Board. They were after bigger fish to fry like county funds. I was undeterred and by August 20, 1983, hosted and led the first ever AIDS fundraiser bike ride in California and the Nation. Three riders rode the Castro to Castro ride from Castro Way, Sacramento to go to the Castro Street Fair in San Francisco and a 4th rider, my partner, did a local 40 mile out and back ride. Only I made it to San Francisco. The two women who accompanied me, unfortunately suffered knee problems and had to turn back about 70 miles into the ride. Two days and 175 miles later, I arrived to 17,000 Castro Street Fair goers and my partner waiting for me in San Francisco with 4500 dollars in pledges to my name. The first AIDS bike ride was completed. History was made. We did volunteer work for the Foundation for several years. I also was involved in founding the first Lambda Community Center Gay, a community services center, in downtown. In 1986, I participated in Gay Games 2 in San Francisco. I managed to get silver in Triathlon. Also, during this time, I was building lutes and guitars and playing performances and was getting some local notoriety on TV for my art, being featured on our PBS station in a 20 minute segment on my skills. In a couple of years, I started gaining interest in antique bicycles and collecting and restoring them. Soon, TV was featuring me on this interest also. Within 5 years of collecting, 1988, I was featured in the first ever bicycle exhibit at the Sacramento History Center. The exhibit showcased 35 of my antique bicycles and some examples from the Schwinn bicycle company and Greg LeMond loaned his 1983 tour de France bike for my show, taking the entire second floor and first floor of the building. In 1989, I took my first Transcontinental bike ride across Europe on my 1886 gormully and Jeffrey high wheel (Ordinary) bicycle. With a group of 60 fellow riders, we rode across Europe. Mid way in the journey, I made an attempt to ride 200 miles in a day's time. I accomplished the feat and to my amazement was told I was the FIRST in modern times to attempt such a feat, this relayed to me by the nationaalfietsmuseum, a Dutch museum of bicycles and vintage cars. The proprietor is an authority on the subject of antique cycling in Europe. My record of 14.5 hrs for 213 miles still stands to this day. I returned to America, only to be invited to a ride across Japan on the same bike with 60 other high wheel riders. The trip was all expense paid so I couldn't refuse. We were featured on Japanese TV and news papers. Part of the trip was riding and racing at the Design Exposition in Nagoya, for four days. We weathered a Monsoon on one of those exhibition rides. I did get to fly the Gossomer Condor simulator while there; I could have flown that machine. Upon my return home from my one month's Japan journey, I received a letter from Australia, inviting me to race and make a record attempt on a 100 year old 100 mile record set by a local there. Off I went. I succeeded in breaking the old record set in 1886 with my 1886 bicycle in 1990, by 90 minutes, the new record being 7H 48 minutes for 100 hilly miles. I then followed up with a 545 mile very hilly ride on the bike around Tasmania. When I returned to America, I did the first EVER bicycle display in Towe Transportation Museum in Sacramento. Another first for me. I also did an exhibit at UC Davis as part of the Exhibit "The Bicycle, Form and Function" in winter 1990.

In the meantime I changed jobs and now was working for a new Agency, Cal EPA, as an Engineer, I worked with landfill design compliance and many other facets, using all my skills I learned in University from Biology, to Engineering, to Paleontology and Environmental Sciences. I hit the ground running, drafting a new set of composting regulations for state wide enforcement, cleaning up a huge file database, and immersing myself in, among other projects, an Environmental Impact Report on the building that would impact virtually EVERY person who would be working in the new building we were about to move into in 2000. The building, as designed, was in violation of a series of work conditions. I alerted the five unions, involved in my Agency, to this series of standards breaches and we forced the management to change everything in the building's 25 floors to be in compliance, from partition heights to cubicle sizes, to a bike commuter room that was too small, relative to the employee ratios of bike commuters and user allocations. I was also Shop Steward and key to many conditions being agreed to between the State management and the worker unions. As time passed, I wrote three professional papers on Paleontology, the only one ever written on this subject, all published in three major paleo-science journals in conjunction with my lecturing at Cal Tech, University of Arizona and University of Colorado. Simultaneously, I published a comprehensive guide on environmental restoration, which is currently being used in S. Korea, Mexico, Canada, China, Turkey, the Local county Agencies in California and several other states in the US and private consultants. It has appeared in Amazon books. I worked in a committee that laid the groundwork for regulatory standards for cruise ships and their wastes, air and water management. In 2000, I published a paper on what may be the oldest pedal driven bicycle in existence in California, being built in 1838 or so. I presented a lecture in Muenster on the bicycle. In 2001, I worked in appraising a bicycle collection which led to a grant and funding to procure the collection for a Museum in conjunction with U.C. Davis. This laid the foundation for the California Bicycle Museum, in which I was a board member until recently when it integrated with the US National Cycling Hall of Fame. I am the only one who knows about these cycles. Because of my bicycle activities, I have been featured in: Bicycling Magazine, Sports Illustrated, Sacramento Magazine (twice), Sacramento Bee, Sacramento Union, several smaller local newspapers, Japanese and Australian newspapers and TV, local TV and Radio and The Wheelmen Magazine which is housed in the US Library of Congress, one of FEW publications retained in its original (paper) format. I have records on two continents and publications circulating worldwide and being used statewide. I recently retired and am now working on two patents, some music and an aircraft which I invented in 1968 and for which our technology has FINALLY caught up, so that I can build it.

My parents said in my being Gay, I would not amount to anything. I am proving them wrong in hexa-quadruplets. And THEY are missing out on all the fun. NEVER let ANYONE say being gay is a detriment, you will prove them wrong.

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A Gay in the Life of The Out Activist

This inspiring story comes to us from Bridget, in West Virginia. Bridget also calls herself The Out Activist, and uses the following as an introduction to her own blog. You can check it out by typing "The Out Activist" into your Facebook search bar.

I never intended to be an activist. I never intended to be gay. Now following up those statements, I think I should explain who I am and how I ended up here.

My name is Bridget. I am 33 years old, married (I use the term loosely and I will explain later), and have two children. I am a white, middle-class, Republican, Christian American living in the coal mining foothills of southern West Virginia. Oh yeah, and I am gay.

West Virginia is a Democratic state by nature. We have the oldest average age of residents in the US. Older than Florida. We have a population of less than 2 million and one of the lowest crime rates. Almost 75% of our state is covered by forest. That probably has something to do with that crime rate fact. 95% of the population is white. 65% of the residents are Protestant, 77% Christian. West Virginia is considered the southern most northern state and the northern most southern state. See, even my state is confused about its identity. These may seem like trivial facts but until eight years ago the most un-normal or out of line thing I did was vote Republican. Then along came a woman. Isn't that how all the good stories start?

I had lived the first 25 years of my life straight. Never even thought twice about it. I don't have some grand coming out story. I wasn't tortured in high school. My parents didn't disown me as a gay teenager. I had never really even thought about the gay community. There certainly are gay people in West Virginia but we don't seem to be as out here as other states. I met Nova, another straight chick, at work one day. I don't know if you can call it love at first sight but it seemed pretty damn close. Within one month we had gently removed the men from out of lives and were dating each other exclusively. Within two months we lived together. Yes, I know that sounds cliché lesbian but that was almost eight years ago and we are still kicking. During that dating time, we experienced hatred. We had our cars keyed, received hate mail, packages on our door step, threatening phone calls, and I even attribute the loss of a job to it. I unfortunately wasn't taking these experiences as a gay education. See, I considered myself an educated person already. I considered my family and friends to be educated as well. I thought these were just small town redneck moments. I didn't realize the prevalence of the hate. I didn't even realize I was about to get a real life education.

In 2004, I came across a website looking for couples to have a holy union ceremony as part of a gay pride event. Nova and I had been together two years. It seemed like it would be a nice display of love to one another. It was about to become a display of love to the country. I think the lack of legal marriage is cheapening the idea of commitment ceremonies. They are everywhere now. That wasn't the case in 2004. This pride event wanted to make a statement. They wanted a couple to show off and parade around. Several couples had stepped up but as the event drew near, fear kicked in, couples dropped out. Last man standing, we ended up becoming the defending voice of gay marriage at that event.

I don't consider protestors romantic. I wanted to hear piano music as I walked down the aisle. I heard banging. I wanted my family standing there for me. I had police officers trying to keep the doors from swinging open at the hands of protestors. I wanted friends taking my picture. I had news cameras. I wanted friends throwing rice. I had hundreds, maybe a thousand welcoming me as an angry mob with signs and shouts. That's the day I met Fred Phelps. If you don't know the name Google it.

In my small town this would have made national news. We weren't in West Virginia. This wasn't a small town. I didn't realize why this was news. People wanted to interview us. We weren't famous. I didn't think we were important. People have weddings every day. Why do I need to go on TV to explain this? I stood in front of the tv cameras. Don't let the emotions over run this. This is not personal. This people spewing hatred do not know me. I am a Christian. They are holding that same Bible I read. Those words aren't in it. Control the anger. Control the tears. I had read the Constitution. I am not breaking any grand law of the land standing here holding the hand of someone I love. Then come the questions. The interviewer wants to provoke me. It makes good ratings. They want a shouting match. What do I do? I defend the protestors. I defend their right to freedom of speech. The whole time I was looking past the camera, through the glass doors that silenced the roar, and right into the face of Fred Phelps. I went on to explain that I was using my freedom of speech and I thought that they should be able to as well. I watched myself on TV that night from our hotel room. Apparently, I was not the only one. The next day strangers came up to me on the street. They thanked me. I showed a rational point of view. I did later come to find out that it wasn't always the case in our community. I discovered that I had a voice. I had a voice and it could have power.

The problem with having a voice is that others can hear it. Excited by what I thought was my 15 minutes of fame, I searched our names on the internet when we returned home. I found us. I even found us on anti-gay websites. When your words are public it gives people the ability to play with them. Words can be twisted. I see it everyday as a gay Christian. The words that I use to love someone are used to hate me. Can I let twisted words be my legacy? Do I really let it end there? There are gay activists out there. There isn't a need for me. Small town kid or some old white guy in a $1000 suit? I am not the face of gay America, or am I?

Life goes on. The moment in the spot light fades. "Real life" kicks in. Normal married life. Well that requires paperwork. Little things kept popping up. Things don't seem this hard for straight couples. Extra effort and phone calls for insurance. Funny looks from the landlord. Tax time is a pain in the ass. Then bigger things starting happening. One of the boys got hurt at a playground. He was bleeding badly. I could see the hospital. Seemed like an easy choice. Stop for a second and take these emotions in. I stood in the E.R. holding a bleeding child who was just denied care because I wasn't his "real" mom. Raising a kid, changing diapers, kissing boo boos, midnight feedings, birthday parties, Christmas morning, and tucking him in a night does not make you a real mom. A piece of paper does. A crack addict, who abandons their kid has more rights than I did. Now I have to make a phone call to the real mom. I broke him but I can't fix him. "Real" mom is a hour away at work. My head was spinning. Maybe it was the room. I was shaking. Bleeding child in one hand. Cell phone in the other. Tears running down my cheek. How can I comfort a crying child? I could not comfort myself. I did feel a sense of relief when I knocked on the triage nurse's window, handed her my cell phone and explained that it was for her. I don't remember the words that were said. I heard them. Hell, I heard them through the glass window, I just don't remember. I do remember that the door opened and they fixed the boo boo. I also remember that I had just been shown my place in the world. I was just the other gay parent. That is equal to being a roommate.

I don't want to say that it is unfortunate but I also cannot say that I am grateful. This is my path in life. I was reminded more than once that I am just a roommate. My wife isn't in the best of health. When you are sick, when you are scared you need your family by your side. Family. Seems like an easy concept but that was another day that I was shown just how powerful a piece of paper can be. A piece of paper that I didn't have. Family only in the room. Roommates are not family. Next of kin? Mother. A mother several states away. A mother that she didn't speak to. A mother that didn't know her medical history. A mother who wouldn't even waste a drive to see her daughter even if it might be the last time. I saw the wrong side of closed hospital doors too many times. I cried alone in hospital hallways too many times.

I am smart. I am educated (those are two different things). Why didn't I know about the problems that faced a gay couple? I shared my experiences with my friends and family. They are also educated, smart people. They happen to be straight. They didn't believe what problems I faced. A lot of people, myself included at that time, thought that gay activist were fighting for special rights. I don't believe that the gay community needs special rights. What I realized was that we were fighting for equal rights. I didn't know this was a fight that I needed to be in. Neither did my friends. You can't fix a problem if you don't even know that it is there. Now I want people to know there is a problem. I want to be part of that solution. I want my friends and family to be part of that solution. I want complete strangers to be a part of that solution.

For years now I have been posting stuff on Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, whatever blog of the day about gay rights. I just want people to know. I call my congressman. I call my President. Hell, I've tried to call the presidents of other countries too. I send emails. I forward stories. I now have those oh so important pieces of paper. I have a bunch of them. Hospital doors are no longer closed in my face. I want to help others with those same steps. It loses its sincerity when you see a post that I just received an email from the President and the next post is that I leveled up on Farmville. I never had the time to devote to a page just for LGBT stuff. God fixed that for me. I recently was hurt. It was bad enough that my body wasn't able to work. That didn't do much for my mind. Sitting at home with a TV remote, a dog, and a bottle of pain pills didn't occupy the hours between doctor appointments. So here I am. I can't promise that once the doctors fix whatever bone I broke or muscle I tore that I will be able to post 20 times a day. But I do promise that I will not stop fighting. I will not stop being that rational voice. I found my voice. I will use it to speak up for those who can't speak up for themselves. I just ask that you take that journey with me.

-Bridget

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